You Know What I Dislike???.....

Having a crush on a really close friend. That's really not cool. But I can see why it would happen... they are in your lives for so long, they are comfortable, easy, and you know they already love you for who you are....
you know what else I dislike?? Having a crush on that one friend, and then having a crush on someone you don't know as well... just because... well lets face it... they're beautiful!! haha. The worst part is is neither of them are currently in my view. One is just out of reach; I highly doubt I stand a chance. And the other... well... we are part of this close knit group.. a family... would it be wrong to switch it up and add something more to that???

So today Britteny hits the Dislike button on... her feelings... crossed signals, and men in general. Blasphemy!!!!!



You both can have a half... deal?.. deal!.. I didn't need it anyway.


Breath in Love
Breathe out Hate
xo Britt

but when the river runs dry we're on different sides

you wait for rain and i chase the storm
we just don't see it the same way
you say you want change but you're never sure
we can't go on like this anymore
cause at the end of the day
you wait for rain and i chase the storm




I'd like to say that I am a very mature person. Like all people I have my slips (hence the name). but I find it so strange when people have the audacity to come to me in a situation where I have tried so hard to be the bigger man (well...girl) and tell me to grow up.




I think people see things differently. thats what I think. The song "You Wait For Rain" by Kyler England just fits with how I feel in these situations. I am chasing after what I want... I am looking for that rainbow after the storm... and because of that I am someone to blame? I don't like to dwell on things, and I really don't like to make the same mistakes twice. More than anything though, I don't hold on to people who aren't worth waiting for. I don't want to wait for the rain, I want to chase after it, even if there's nothing good in those clouds atleast I can say I got out, got away, went for what I believed in, instead of waiting around for something that is never going to happen.



and on that note... I'm getting rid of the bad in my life, the people who make it that bad. I know who I want to be around and the good karma I want to be around, and I'm going to make sure that that is what I have in my life.



as always...
Breathe in Love
Breathe out Hate.


He'll never tell you, he can play guitar....<3

I need some inspiration and I need it quick. not for just a paper or a dance or anything like that. today I need to just be inspired by life. that feeling where you just stop in your footsteps, and take it all in. not rushing anywhere, not making sure your in bed at a certain time for sleep. just the moments where you take it in and breathe sweet air and feel the sun. the kind of inspiration that just inspires you to want to live another day.
I think I really miss the springtime.

I'm Not Suppose to Feel This Way About You

How strange it is when someone you've known in your life as a best friend crosses the line to something else? Its strange, feeling comfortable and safe with someone because of who they are and how well you know them. I feel funny.



It's just this big rush of confusion. so what? do we like each other like that? or was it just something that happened? I honestly don't know if I know.
Feelings are such a strange thing. How do you know if the feelings are the right ones? Are they just masked by other feelings? Or are those your true feelings and you've been hiding it for all this time? Damn it... I wish things made sense for once. So many questions

I really like this photo..

I'm having an anti-valentines party this sunday... because lets be serious who am I gonna see on the infamous V-day... so I searched for a picture for it... typed in broken heart... and this is what I got.. a be mine valentine heart.. broken... how perfect.... this is the statement of my life right now. Thank you photography and amazing photographers, for picturing how I feel...

SNOW!

We have a snow day today! and boy do I need it!!! Im starting to get a cold, I think its from the stress of things. So today is going to be a total ME day. Im going to finish the book I've been reading, take a nap, clean my room, get some bill paying done, shower, overload on tea throughout the day, snuggle on my couch..mmmmm all the good things I've wanted to do the last couple of weeks to put me at ease.







More than anything today I want to make myself just feel good about things. I've felt so alone lately ... even though there are tons of friends around me and Im having a good time... I just really feel like something is missing.
It's sad to say it, because I'm such an independent person, and I like being on my own, but I think I am needing love. I need that call at night, or someone to just come and hang out on the couch all day because you are sick and lonely. I'm really tired of it... and I hate to admit that, but I really do wish that I could find a guy and just get it right this time.

SUPERBOWL!

Im so excited New Orleans won... especially for Drew Brees, he is such a good soul, and such an underestimated qb<3
NOLA!!!xoxoxoxo

I've been freaking out a little. I was feeling really good today, went to the gym, got some funny choreography done... and then some things happened that really turned my mood around. I dont understand how people can be so infuriating.
but then my friend Summa said something to me... just a dumb little saying, but when you picture yourself actually doing so you feel better....

"Breathe in Love, Breathe out Hate."

I know it seems weird... how do you breathe in and out those things? but just close your eyes and think about it... sucking the positives into your system, getting all the bad crap out... I feel a little better now.