Thursday, February 24, 2011

how do you get better without the motivation?

I feel like I'm losing my mojo here people
I want to be working out and choreographing and cleaning and organizing... but here I am.. laying in bed, no motivation.
I think it may be just a mix of frustrations from the last week. Long drives, wrong amounts on paychecks (which lead to overdue bills) lack of inspiration to create something up to my standards. Arguing parents (who argue about nothing) arguing friends, confused feelings.
Everything around me seems so negative and I just want to hide from all of it. I just feel blocked. No writing, no drawing, no dancing.. nothing is coming out of me.

someone please get me out of this funk =(

Friday, February 18, 2011

We are having the same feelings.

I'm working on getting over somebody. I take a long time to heal, no matter how long or short the relationship was.. it takes me time. Right now I'm afraid my time isn't over yet and I have met someone new.
The problem is.. I don't think he has moved on either.
This is what happens when you do stupid stuff like have a tumblr that you show on your facebook.. other people will see it. I will see it.

I feel like we are two lost souls who found each other, who will try to love each other.. and we don't even know how.

I'm rambling.
That's what these are for right?
Welcome back Britteny.. Everything else in your life may have taken a slight change during your blogger hiatus... but as the world can see you're love life is still a disaster.

I really hate to say that I miss you

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Whip My Hair ft Neil Young & Bruce Springsteen

I love videos that make me smile.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

you know whats a strange concept?

Having a friend be your hero.
I am lucky enough to have a hero, and today I get to celebrate him.
His name is Ryan Hogan... he's a dummy, a goofball, not very smooth with the ladies.. and a member of the United States Marines.
Today is his 23rd birthday, and although he will probably find some time to celebrate with his marine buddies, myself, Nick, and a few others will be wishing he was home to crack open a beer, let me bake him a cake, and laugh at his stupidity.
This will be the Third birthday his friends from back home have not been able to spend with him because He has been serving our country... but this year I am extra grateful. Hogan spent his 22nd birthday in the deserts of Afghanistan. I got a phonecall once a month, sometimes less, and I didn't watch the news for 9 months because I was afraid I would see him on the tv screen.
He spent his birthday last year fighting to keep our country safe.. and for that, he is my hero.

Happy Birthday Hogey Bear.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Welcome Back Welcome Back Welcome Back!

Computer is back up and running! finally!
I feel like I've gone a little insane without it.
Mostly for the reason that I need this to keep my thoughts organized as my life constantly changes. And by constantly I do mean all of the time. I've gone through job changes again, Things are growing and changing with my dance company, with teaching dance,with LIFE!

I feel like I don't know where to start, aside from right now life is pretty good. I can't complain about it.

So I leave this post saying that.. I well, have a lot to say and don't know where to start, but I will... I like to look at this and see where I am, where I am going, how I've grown.. I can't just leave out details while I lacked a computer for three weeks. But for now.. just something to put a smile on your face! Probably the cutest commercial of the superbowl.